A sudden thought

When I looking into my future budget,
I realized I omitted one important part,
that is use my 1st salary's money to belanja those support me till today!
Like my, Aunt, Kajie, mum n dad, Dai gu, Dai gu jiong, and etc.

And I realized something tht is,
When they support me with money n mentality,
is when I was in a serious "financial crisis" and hardship during my 1st 2 years in KL.

I just remembered that they said to me, "Study hard, dun let ur parents down."
And I realized that and asked myself, WTH I AM DOING NOW???
Not even get a 3.0CGPA and still so relax now???

I really thanks to y dai gu jiong, his words is the most memorable to me.
Cz that is the 1st time he gave money to me and 1st time say that sentence to me.
When I looking myself right now, I looked like a dumbshit that dun appreciate what I had gone thru in the past to get to who am I today.

Still remembered how suffer my life is back to foundation, 1st year in KL.
Everyday meal set RM3 for whole day! Eat those mihun Goreng or nasi goreng everyday or bread.
Knowing that my family have their own financial problem so thats why I never asked for a cent from them except I really a dead financial crisis.

Travelling to Uni which take about 2hours per trip..
One day I have to use around 4 hours just for the purpose to travel.
One trip I had to take 2 or 3 buses, LRT, KTM to get to Uni..
I keep telling myself, I can get through this,
I can do things which is impossible!
Keep telling myself, I can get better life after this.

yeap I did now,
I did have a better life now after I have the ptptn loan.

But why I am wasting my life??
Way toooo relaxing!
Its time to fight harder.
Harder and harder!
Dun ever disappoint my parents again.
Even though my mum is ok with my result.
But I really feel dumbshit to myself now..
How come I forgot what my uncle said to me??

Damn...

Still got 2 more subjects now..
I will never lose anymore..!
Hopefully the 2 subjects before this can pass..

All the best everyone!